Three pregnancies in three years. Each of them related to a trauma of sorts. I guess that can take its toll and I guess that is the crux of my black cloud at the moment. I am feeling the weight of this pregnancy, the pain and the tiredness that comes with it which is a stark reminder of the the emotional journey of this pregnancy. It is not an easy one and it is putting a huge strain on all aspects of my life.
I want the baby so badly though it hurts just thinking about it. Please let everything be ok! Please let us get through this difficult, testing time. Please Please let everything be ok!