Thursday, September 23, 2010

A day

4am
awake
worried
prodding
poking
small movement
asleep
7am
awake
worried
prodding
uneasiness
knots
headache
driving
driving
child vomit
friends
tears
can't breath
vomit
prodding
worried
deep breaths
distractions
driving
driving
driving
hospital
monitors
silence
.
.
.
vomit
can't breath
room spinning
blinding white terror
NOOOOOOO
new midwife
135 bpm
relief
breath
just breath
perfect trace
exhausted
emotional
home
collapse
fetal position
grumpy
edgy
sleep

10 comments:

Anonymous said...

hugs X
emmaonafarm

E. said...

Oh Kristalee,

I'm sorry that you had a day like that. I am so thankful taht the new midwife found the baby's heartbeat and then the trace was perfect.

Thinking of you.

oelare said...

Kristalee - your post was so provoking. It really captured the fear and turmoil you are experiencing.

Just know there are strangers out there thinking of you and hoping for you and your family.

Take care. xx

mymilkspilt said...

Hugs.

megs said...

Hugs Kristalee. Lots and lots of them to you. xxoooooo

Jenn said...

So exhausting for you all in every way. Not long to go xx

Federica said...

Kristalee: I am one of those strangers that is thinking of you. BIg hugs honey

Jesse said...

Oh Kristalee. Such an ordeal, every day, worrying!!

xx

Thinking of you and hoping the next few weeks go quickly.

Melissa said...

big hugs hun.. we are nearly there now..

call me anytime.. love you xxxxx

Krissie said...

Another week along. I hope the jitters have settled again and you are getting kicked in the ribs all day! Even with so much fear of the unknown, enjoy the beauty of your pregnancy- take photos of your lovely belly, and breathe. You have more people praying for you than you can even imagine. All the best till you meet your beautiful bub. xoxo