To have four children.
Sometimes one gets left out and it is usually the least demanding one. My sweet little Lola has been a little left out.
Not a day goes by that I don't think of her. But in recent times, she has occupied less of my mind than usual. It has been a while since I have looked through her box or at her photos, I have felt a pull to do exactly that tonight though and It takes but a moment to be transported back to the pain of saying goodbye to my baby.
She is so beautiful, I was looking for similarities to Lucy Rose but I have to say I wasn't struck by how much they look alike. This disappointed me as I see them as being so connected, I don't suppose this means they have to look alike too though.
As time goes by it can be hard to stay connected to my missing baby yet I feel a very strong desire to keep her memory in our family alive.