Wednesday, April 21, 2010

Big ball of fire

is building up inside of me. The closer we get to the anniversary of Lola's death, the less I am coping. The ball of fire inside me is ignited so quickly and i find myself full of anger. And sadness. I knew this time would be hard but I could never have predicted how far I would fall. Some days I dont know how I will make it to the next, the hopelessness is overwhelming.
It has taken me this whole, long one year to feel the complete impact of our loss, I believe. To realise the void that Lola has left in our family will never be filled, never.


megs said...

Oh Kristalee, I'm so sorry you are going through such a difficult time.
Sending you all my love and support.xxoo

DaniV said...

I'm so sorry for the pain that you and your husband (and children) must be feeling right now. It's unfair that Lola isn't with you right now. Thinking of you x

Anna said...

Just take one day, or one hour, at a time and get through that. I couldn't imagine for a second that the void Lola has left would ever be filled. She will always remain a very special part of your family.
I wish I could say something that would magically take away your pain and sadness.
I am thinking of you and your beautiful family xox

Jesse said...

Hey Kristalee,

I was just thinking about you this morning and wondering how you were travelling. I'm sorry to hear you're doing it particularly tough at the moment - completely understandable of course :(

Gorgeous Little Lola will be in my mind even more so during the next few weeks and I will whisper her a birthday wish from me.

When we get through May perhaps we should catch up for coffee or something?


Kristalee said...

Thanks ladies for thinking of us!

Sounds great Jesse! I hope May is not too difficult for you too xx

Maggie said...

I'm so sorry. I wish your sweet Lola was here with you today. Thinking of you and sending you love! XO

Davina said...

HUGE HUGS for you all, you have been on my mind particularly the past few days. xxx