Thursday, August 26, 2010

free falling

this last stage feels exactly like that. I am hurtling towards the ground at unbelievable speeds, I am out of control. It feels like she could be taken away in the blink of an eye, though the doctors assure me that is not the case. I hope with all my heart that they are right.
I spent the entire day yesterday feeling breathless and a bit panicked as I ran around the house preparing to bring a new born HOME. Something clicked in me when I woke yesterday morning and it finally felt like I could do it, so i did, really quickly and all at once. I THINK it was the right thing to do, even though every day prior to yesterday I didn't think so. It's done now, the kids are excited at the prospect and the preparing and we are ready.


Cal said...

After reading through all your blog posts and relaying the story of your beautiful family to my family at the dinner table (not a dry eye in the house) I thought I would just say a quick hello.

I am normally a 'quiet' blog reader but I really just wanted to say that I hope this 'last stage' goes smoothly and I will certainly be thinking of you and wishing you and your family all the very best.


Anonymous said...

Thinking of you, and wishing and hoping and positively anticipating joyful news in the coming weeks xx

Anonymous said...

Good on you Kris. I think you are a marvelous inspiration. Always thinking of you guys and Little Lola x x x

MamaBear said...

I really am so very excited for you. I can understand your feelings, I know I would feel exactly the same way. Thinking of you, and looking forward to your wonderful announcement. B

Jenn said...

Bring on a happy ending! I think the most beautiful tribute to Lola would be to have some happiness and joy brought into her family xoxoxo