Sunday, February 14, 2010

The Up Side

Project "My body is a temple" is going great guns. Hmm maybe not the right wording. It is going great but so slow. It has had a knock on affect into other areas of my life that I wasn't quite expecting.

* I am feeling a renewed faith in my bodies abilities to do what I need it to do, to work in the way that it is meant to work. I didn't realise how much I hated and resented my body for being the cause of Lola's death and also for being that constant reminder of my failing. I am finally (after nine months) back to the weight I was before Lola's pregnancy. I still have a way to go but my body is responding in the way I expect it to to all the hard work I am putting back into it.

* I am feeling like I am worthwhile. I deserve to have 30 minutes a day to excercise even if that means someone else in my family has to miss out on 30 minutes of my time. I also feel like I am worthy of spending some of our tight budget on some of the things that I need. I worked out the other day that it has been 14 months since I last had a haircut.

* I have energy. It feels so good to have energy. Energy to play with the kids, energy to excercise, energy to catch up with friends on a weeknight, energy to be organized, energy to keep up with the housework.

* Our budget is benefitting too. From my organization and my energy and my motivation. I have been cooking yummy, healthy food for our lunches and dinners and we have hardly eaten out.

* I feel happy. I have for a few weeks now. I think it is partly excercise endorphines but also because of all of the above.

* My maternity clothes are getting too big! Another constant reminder of my failings and sadness was not fitting into any pre-pregnancy clothes. I have been wearing maternity clothes everyday since Lola was born except in the last week or so. Yippee!

The down side

Actually it isn't so much a down side as a challenge I need to overcome. I have really isolated myself in the last month. I have only attended social gatherings twice in all that time because I just dont trust my willpower when confronted by temptation. I slipped up both times. I dont know how to overcome this issue. I know isolating myself is not healthy so I am working on this.

I'll be back tomorrow with an update on project "A change a month" (towards a more sustainable lifestyle)

xoxo

8 comments:

Malory said...

It is so hard that temptation! Once you become used to it & start seeing the results the urge to "cheat" becomes less. Those times you gave in are normal. It will become easier. It took me a few months (when I was losing weight for my wedding) before I was able to say no to a piece of cake at a bday party. Months later I didn't really even want it! And if you knew me u would never beleive that! lol I am so happy to hear you have been feeling happy. That is wonderful!

Chantelle {fat mum slim} said...

That's so great. Good on you. It must feel amazing. xx

Kellyansapansa said...

Wow, you're doing so well - congratulations!

As for avoiding temptation, I let myself have one or two small bites of something "bad" at social events. This way I'm not missing out and I appreciate that small taste so much. It's kind of like a mini reward and stops me from blowing out completely after denying myself everything for so long.

Melissa said...

thats so great beautiful..

I agree with the comment above. I think you should "allow" yourself a reward a social gatherings. I have found that when I try not to have any naughty things at all when I am on my health kicks, it usually means a big blowout later on those naughty things I crave.
So my suggestion is, allow yourself a couple of naughty things at these events, it a nice little reward and stops the "blowouts" later on when your really craving...

keep up the great work hun.
xxxxx

searching said...

can I just say...again...you are looking fabulous and all your hard work and dedication is showing!!!! I felt a bit naughty checking you out yesterday :) x x x

Kristalee said...

aww thanks for all the compliments ladies, so lovely xx

Jenn said...

Congratulations and well done! Very inspirational :-) xx

Melissa and Jason said...

Well done Kristalee. I'm so glad to hear that you are feeling positive about your new healthier lifestyle. I completely understand about the 'panic' that sets in when you know you have a social event coming up. It's completely normal to feel a lack of control, especially when your new habits aren't quite ingrained yet. I tried to make sure I didn't miss out by being prepared. I'd cook a ww slice or two (like I did for Lola's picnic at the playground) or ring the restaurant first and ask them to fax or email a copy of their menu. That way I could make the best choices before I got there and not miss out. Well done again and stay positive.