As christmas approaches (only one month today!!) I have been trying to prepare myself for what could be a hard time. I dont mean that I am expecting it to be hard but rather trying to think of ways to make it less so. I am a lover of all things Christmas, I'd like it to stay that way, so I have been trying to think of ways to make it less hard for Brendon and I and just as enjoyable for all those around us. Woah, where to start?
Ultimately having Lola here would be the best arrangement possible, but kinda out of reach. The next best thing is to have her here in other ways, to make her a part of what would have been her first Christmas. I have been busy sewing Chrissy decorations for the grandparents. They are quite big so noone can really miss them when hanging on the tree...
My Aunty Leanne bought us a Christmas snow globe that we can bring out every year, this is Lola's special Christmas decoration.
As a family we will buy a present, age appropriate for Lola, and put it under the Kmart Christmas tree.
I plan on going gently this year, not having too many expectations on myself. If there are tears then so be it, I've learnt that holding them in just makes it worse. I am allowed to be sad that my tiny girl isn't with her family for her first Christmas.
Do you have any ideas on how to remember those little people that are not here, but should be? Or how to get through the festive season when there is someone 'tiny' missing?