Where are you at in your grief?
I think I am pretty close to rock bottom at the moment. I have never known grief and depression like what I am feeling right now. I thought the first few months were as bad as it would get and I was coping quite well at that time. The last month or so I have cried every day and I am barely getting by each day.
Has it been years or just weeks since you lost your baby.
It has been 6 months
How are you feeling.
As above I am not feeling good but I am at a point now where I know I need help to find a way through this. Finally today I contacted SIDS and Kids. They were lovely. I will have a consellor come to my home and support me.
How do you hope you will feel in the future.
I really want to find a way to live in this world without Lola. I dont want to just be surviving, I want to live. I want to be the best mother I can be, the best friend I can be, the best daughter, aunty, grand daughter, sister-in-law. It has been all about me the last few months.
Have you found any peace at all?
Not yet, I really want to though and hope it isn't too far away.
Secret Garden
9 comments:
I hope you can find a way to live without Lola.
I hope you do find peace.
I hope you find peace.
I am glad to hear that you are taking steps to get the help you deserve. I say deserve because you do deserve to heal and live again. I know that at times we think that we don't deserve to do things for ourselves, but we do!
I wish you all the best :)
I am so sad that you are going through this. I think it's a big step seeing a counsellor, and will be difficult, but good at the same time.
Do you remember how Ava had Christmas decorations sent from everywhere? Can we do this for Lola?
That is such a lovely idea Chantelle. I have Christmas on my mind at the moment. I have been making decorations for the grandparents that have Lola embroidered on them since they have a decoration for all the other grandkids we cant have Lola miss out.
Hoping you find the peace your heart craves. Thank you for sharing.
xo
I really hope that you can find a way to live again.
((Hugs))
your words about wanting to live not just survive cut through me. I know exactly what you mean.
Peace xx
Oh honey, you are a great sister-in-law. We know you are going through tough times and we are here for you. No questions asked, no expectations, as promised x
p.s. your a pretty damn fantastic aunty too x
Good for you lovely. I hope you find peace and happiness in life as it is now, though not what you had hoped and dreamed. I also hope the counselor helps you in this new journey. XX
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