Sunday, July 26, 2009

Jackson said

Jackson said tonight "Mummy, even though Lola died she is still my baby sister isn't she? I replied "Of course darling she will always be yours' and Millie's baby sister and Mummy and Daddy's baby girl".
Jackson then said "One day we will see Lola up in the sky wont we!" I replied "I really hope so".
It amazes me how in tune my children are with me and how I am feeling. Lola has been on my mind a lot this weekend, I dont know why, she just has. Yesterday while visiting friends I randomly started to cry, Jackson noticed and said with a very sweet smile "It's alright mummy", Millie came and sat on my lap and stroked my face a few times, my husband put his arm around me and my friend got me some tissues and I felt loved, supported and not like a freak for crying!

p.s. wouldn't you just kill for those eyelashes?
p.p.s Thankyou for the photo Davina xx


onesmallchicken said...

Wow, what a lovely little boy you have there, and i don't just mean the photo (and those lashes OMG!!!). I'm glad you felt the love and support of your family and your friend but Darlin, you won't ever be considered a "freak" for crying.

sofrenchysochic said...

Gorgeous pic (those lashes... gimme gimme!!). He sounds like he is a beautiful child, inside and out. I don't think anyone would consider you a freak for crying. With grief there is no "normal" or "abnormal"... there is only getting through each day however you can, whatever that may involve. I'm glad you have a loving and supportive environment, your family and friends sound lovely.


Leanne said...

Hi Darl, Don't be so hard on yourself. I am sure that people will not think you are a freak for crying, but see that you are a mum grieving for her baby. It is okay to cry. You are doing really well.
Lots of love to you all xxxx

Davina said...

oh bless his little soul xx
I've been thinking of you and sweet Lola this weekend too.

pollymackenzie said...

All these tears are like tiny shining steps moving you forward, moving you through. We love you guys and are with you every step of the way xxxxx