Today was the big day, the day I have been anticipating for what feels like forever. We had our appointment at the hospital to get the autopsy results. I wasn't a complete mess like I expected to be, I managed to have a clear mind and get all the information I wanted. I have another appoinmtent next tuesday as well though so if any more questions come to mind I have another opportunity to ask!
The result came back that I had a plancental abruption which means that 25% of the placenta had come away from the uterine wall which was probably caused by a clot behind the placenta. This meant that Lola's blood supply was compromised. We were told that the tests done on Lola showed that she was perfect and healthy. This part was a kick in the teeth to us.
The thursday before Lola died I started to bleed. We rushed into emergency and Lola and I were monitored and everything was fine but I was asked to return the next day for further monitoring. I turned up on the friday and was strapped onto the heart monitor. The midwife told me that she was very quiet and so they gave me something to eat to see if she would perk up. She didn't. They then said that I should go for a walk and have some lunch to see if that would make a difference. They then changed their mind and told me that actually they thought everything was fine. The nurse then took me through to another machine to check the fluid around the baby, her comment was 'oh it is past it's use by date in here' but then, again, she changed her mind and decided everything was ok. I was sent home. Sometime in the next 24 hours Lola died.
Those three things in combination with each other, 1. bleeding 2. slow heartbeat 3. low fluid levels around the baby, should have had me admitted to the hospital and been induced or at the very least an ultrasound and more monitoring. If this had of happened then I would be holding Lola in my arms right now! Why this didn't happen I dont know.
Very conveniently the records of my monitoring on that friday are not in my file! The doctor who talked to us today had no record of me visiting the hospital on that day. I saw him grimace when I told him what had happened and he admitted I should have been induced. That is part of the reason I have to go back next tuesday, he was going to attempt to locate the report from that day.
I feel so angry today. Stupid mistakes were made and the cost was my daughters life. It is such a waste. Why were these mistakes made? Were they too busy, not enough beds? Had they seen lots of women in exactly my situation and everything turned out fine? I have to take this further, it feels wrong to just let it slide, like I dont care. We will see what transpires next tuesday and then make decisions on what next.
Thankyou for all the supportive messages, emails and calls over the last few days, it helps so much xxx