Up and down and up again

I am home! I came home on saturday so I only had to stay in the hospital for one night because the procedure went well, I get the results in a few weeks. I really hope it is good news, cross your fingers for me. Admittedly it was all a bit dramatic at the hospital, I totally freaked out before going to theatre and decided I couldn't go through with it. The Doctors were incredibly patient and kind to me, they gave me time and talked me through my fears and convinced me to go ahead. I was lieing on the table in theatre about to have the drip inserted and decided I needed to go to the loo. The nurse took me and did not let go of my arm the whole time, I think they thought I was going to do a runner at this point. Anyway, all was ok in the end and I am glad I got it over and done with.

I want to focus on getting physically strong now. I have 14 weeks of maternity leave left and that time is going to be about looking after me and getting the most out of this time with Jackson and Millie. My kids really need to be the focus, Jackson is starting to show signs of anxiety. It makes me feel ill to think that he is worrying about things at the tender age of 4.

To change the subject completely, some amazing things happened to me on the weekend. When I came home on saturday from the hospital waiting for me was a pretty little parcel. Inside was a gorgeous chain and pendant with my three children's names stamped on it. So special! The parcel was from three of my beautiful friends and came at exactly the right moment! The photo doesn't show up the names very well but you get the idea right?



On Sunday a couple of our friends dropped by our house as they said they had something they wanted to give to us and it had a story to go with it. Sooo this lovely friend had contacted the author of the 'Charlie and Lola' books, Lauren Child, to see if she could possibly have a book dedicated to our Lola. Unfortunately Lauren is no longer writing the Charlie and Lola books but was touched to hear how our Lola got her name and so sent Jackson and Millie a copy of one of the books signed by her with a little message for them. She also sent a card to Brendon and I with a little personal message. How amazing is that!!! On two counts, that our friends would go to so much trouble for us and that Lauren Child responded as she did.





The ideals which have lighted my way, and time after time have given me new courage to face life cheerfully, have been Kindness, Beauty, and Truth. (Albert Einstein)

I found this quote yesterday, it sums up absolutely how I feel at the moment. I am yet to discover Lola's legacy to the world but a picture is beginning to emerge of the gift Lola's devastatingly short life has given me.

p.s. apologies for my shocking photography!